You may ask/think 'well that's cool but so what?' - The reason this came to mind is the kids in my class and I talked alot that wk about God's 3 (possible) answers to our Prayers (Yes, No, Maybe). - I rarely talk about my medical stuff to people unless they ask (I share quite a bit on fb and my blog bc I know that reaches Families and Individuals in the same or similar shoes as I) and I get alot of personal messages from people who've found my blog when they've been looking for info. But otherwise I rarely talk about it to people or my class kids.
I don't talk about my stuff alot w my SS kids unless they ask or in the case of my VBS kids I without specifics mentioned to them as an example how there where often times I prayed (especially) in the past 6mo and how I did struggle at times bc I didn't know what exactly I should want in response bc I knew my real prayers weren't possible.
I asked them for examples what they might have prayed for recently and been uncertain of the answer or did they have examples where they knew exactly what the answer was (was a great discussion!)
I talked about with my kids and they talked about in return how as I was I praying/re-praying at times and honestly talking w God some days, many days in a row about my fears (on repeat) the answers he gave where of often in his own time vs my time. -
The reason I share all that is bc I feel like leading up to this Neurosurgery Appt maybe God is showing me (has been showing me really), as hard as some losses to my Team have been I also realize how blessed I am that for instance I am able to stay in touch w Dr.Bragg/she has helping my Team and God is allowing her to still in my life. I can't even say how much easier having her help has made this all and having her help in helping my Team has made some issues easier to sort/figure out a plan.
Just knowing we might be closer to figuring out seeming shunt issues ( I am sure praying!) and to we've a plan for the Heart stuff feels much better than a month ago where it wasn't anxiety by any means but there was a fair amount of uncertainty.
I can't even say how many times I've thought 'ASAP' in my mind and have kept the plastic bracelet us Teachers each wore that wk sitting in my bathrm as a daily reminder. =)